1. It feels so damn satisfying when I find some gunk in there. When I floss and nothing comes out, I feel like a failure. Don’t ask why. Similarly, I feel this way when I clean out my ears.
2. I see a lot of prostitutes and mail-order brides where I work. It’s something so odd for me because I have never seen that in real life. And then I think, at least these girls are getting a good meal? I don’t understand how these two thoughts are related, other than the fact they occurred while I was flossing.
3. I keep telling people that if I don’t get HERB, I’ll be fine. That I’ll make the best of a sudden situation and prevail. But I don’t believe myself. I want to remain positive but I have made so many attachments with the staff and the memories there that I don’t want to go anywhere else. I honestly don’t fit anywhere else. I am an awkward individual. And no, not in that Michael Cera/Ellen Page kind of way where it’s endearing. I am straight up awkward. And it’s hard being that way in a job where mostly everyone are extroverts who have no problems with expressing their opinions, speaking up, talking to people outside their circles, etc. I am not confident enough for the suites, outgoing enough for first year areas, and I am not exactly sure what hoytbury is known for, but whatever it is, I probably don’t possess it. All of these staffs are comprised of awesome people and I am afraid if I was moved somewhere else, I wouldn’t find my fit. I know at the end of the day, I should feel grateful I have a job, because without the RA position, I wouldn’t be able to afford living on campus, but these are the things I am feeling.
my eating habits are so terrible in the summer its like one day i’ll eat an apple and nothing else and the next i will eat a whole pizza and a cake
I’ve been going car shopping with my mechanic, and my god this man has a gift. He can literally walk around the car twice, open the hood and take a peak for 5 seconds, tap the back bumper, and be like “this car isn’t worth your asking price. *asks dealer to drop it by $800*
having separate continents is so stupid im over it reblog if you miss pangaea